Happy2bHardcore on TV

Thanks to Mark for alerting me to this playing on Hulu (and Disney+), I was able to get a screengrab. A set decorator thought the poster of Happy2bHardcore would fit well!

This is from the 2000s show “My Wife and Kids”.

Requiem for My Rave: 2 Years Later

I just noticed we past the 2 year anniversary of the release of my memoir, Requiem for My Rave.

I thought I’d reflect a bit on it with some distance.

First, the feedback on the book has been tremendous. It’s been really touching to me to see how many people have enjoyed it, whether that’s through revisiting that time in their lives or living vicariously through an era they were not a part of.

Second, I’m super proud of the book and what is in it. It feels complete and I don’t have desires to add to it or update it. It’s a complete work. What’s amazing to me is I’ve had people say “you didn’t write about X, or Y” and there are definitely some stories I forgot about, but in the end I feel I accomplished my main objective and as a complete piece I am very proud of it and the legacy is stands for.

Third, I didn’t realize at the time of writing it how much it would affect ME. That this story I had been running away from for a long time can now be re-integrated into my current self. Even though I’ll never spin records again, I will always be Anabolic Frolic. I can still be that guy on stage electrifying a crowd and creating connection. To be told nowadays how much “energy” people can feel while watching me speak on Zoom really shows how I can translate those old instincts to a new medium.

I’m tremendously proud of the book and of telling my story. If you’re reading this it’s because you looked me up (I’m not on social media so you have to specifically look for me) and I thank you for your interest in doing that.

My greatest accomplishment

This was originally posted at chrisfrolic.com. I am reposting it here because I most of these statements applied to me over 20 years ago as well, when you knew me as Anabolic Frolic. I’m curious through that lens how this video affects you, seeing how these statements were true then, as well as now.

I was recently asked what my greatest accomplishment of the last 10 years is. I’ve done some great things over the past 10 years. I launched a multi-million dollar business. I also had the courage to leave it. I completed and published my memoir after it being incomplete for 14 years. I bought a home. Reached financial independence. My life has had huge changes.

However, one accomplishment stood out. It was the writing of a document I titled “Chris’ Statement of Being”.

Through my work over the last few years, I’ve gotten to know myself in a very deep and clear way. This “sense of self” has given me great power. Because I know myself, I am able to share it with others and have them know who I am in a very deep way in a very short amount of time.

As I’ve begun to share this document, it moves both me and my audience powerfully. I gain in power every time I share it, and the audience is always moved to witness it.

Even better, like a chain reaction, once this is seen, it cannot be unseen.

Until today I have only shared this in intimate settings with people. I’m now sharing it with the world. This is not about what I do, this is who I am.

Give yourself a quiet moment and full attention before watching this video. How does it affect you?

“You saved my life”

A recurring theme through the raver letters in Requiem for My Rave, and even now in the reviews for my book, are a very similar message: You saved my life.

I never shirked from this responsibility. I always knew the stakes were high. That was why I did what I did.

Looking back, I admire that young-self version of me. All that responsibility thrust onto the shoulders of an early 20-something. In many ways seen as a father figure, even though just a young kid myself.

I did the best I could with what I had, and I’m proud of what I accomplished.

I’m proud to share those memories today.

I’m extremely proud to hear your stories.

How the cover for Requiem for My Rave was designed

I’m really happy with how the cover turned out. This is the story of the process.

Initially I had found a very well-known cover designer. He has designed many famous book covers. I wanted something that I could put on my wall, that I could be proud of. I spared no expense in producing this book and was ready to pay whatever it took to make it happen. I contacted him and we had a phone conversation that lasted an hour. I talked about the themes of the book, of service, sacrifice, triumph through adversity, of creation.

“Wow, that’s a lot to fit into a cover”, he responded.

Continue reading “How the cover for Requiem for My Rave was designed”

Requiem For My Rave

My memoirs of my rave years has just been released, titled Requiem For My Rave. A requiem is an act of remembrance. The second part of the title refers to “my” rave. This thing that I created and suffered in service for.

I started writing the book at the conclusion of my rave company, Hullabaloo, in 2005. I finished the first draft in 2009. I then hit “save” and ten years passed.

I returned to the book at the start of 2019. I had begun the process of digitizing old VHS tape of my performances to upload to YouTube. Continue reading “Requiem For My Rave”

Creating something new

My entire rave career I was always creating something new. When I had nothing left to create, I moved on.

Well, I have something new to offer.

Check back here towards the end of August for my announcement(s).

I suffered for years

This was originally posted at my entrepreneurial blog, www.chrisfrolic.com.

One of my biggest regrets is how many years I suffered needlessly because I didn’t value my own work.

Here are some pics from 20 years ago, February 1999. Me DJing in front a literal sea of people at the International Centre just outside of Toronto. People paid and traveled to come to see me. I had sold hundreds of thousands of CDs at this time, and my rave company, Hullabaloo, was at its peak.

When this event was over, I went home to my 1 bedroom basement apartment. I had abandoned my piece of crap car in the street about a month before these pics were taken because I had no money to pay for insurance or fix the car.

I lived without a car for 14 years after this.

I have to make this even more clear: I just had 5,000 people buy tickets to see me and I was broke! If I calculated the hourly wage of the months of planning and risk that went into putting an event on of this size, not to mention my value as an attraction – I was working for below minimum wage.

I lived in apartments until 2012.

I didn’t value the experience I was creating for all of my patrons. I was fixated on keeping prices low, about making a small bit of profit in some misguided attempt at not looking like a money grub combined with blue-collar guilt.

And I suffered greatly because of it. The sad thing was, I was still accused of “being in it for the money”. People would do bar napkin math and guess that I was making 100x more what the reality was. So, my suffering wasn’t even quieting those critics. I did it for nothing!

My real fans, the ones that truly valued this one of a kind experience I was creating, I’m sure would tell me the event was actually priceless.

This would be the advice I would give my younger self now:

1) Focus on the value of what you are creating. What is it “worth” to someone, not what did it cost.
2) Your time is valuable! It is not free! You are the sum total of all your knowledge and experiences, combined with the value you are delivering to someone. Don’t work for free!
3) Don’t compare what you are doing with anyone else, or anything you’ve done before. Abandon all that stinky thinking. Focus on what it is you are doing now, and what is that worth to someone.
4) You can’t please the critics, so don’t bother.

Till next time.

PS: I recently posted some video from this exact rave, if you are curious to see what it was all about:

Memorabilia on my walls

In my home office where I spend most of my day I have a handful of pieces dedicated to my rave career.

This was a gift given to me by the Friendship Crew at the final Hulla event in 2005. It features a record that was brought to the UK and signed by all the major UK hardcore DJs of that time and the rest signed by Hulla DJs and the Friendship Crew. There is a group photo taken at the pre-party and an engraved inscription that says “Hullabaloo! June 21, 1997 – July 9, 2005”. This is a very special gift.

This is a famous photo that was shot by a fan and photographer named Brian Sparano. He gave me the high quality print which I had framed.

My framed collection of the Happy2bHardcore series, with a designation from Nielsen Soundscan of selling over 400,000 copies.

This was a gift from a fan photographer named Megan Wong shot at Hulla in 1999. She actually included it in a photo exhibit she held, then gifted me the very large frame and pic (movie poster sized).

These are all very special and hang prominently in my office.